I’m tired of living with my father. He constantly judges, not only me, but almost everyone else he meets. He verbally abuses me every night, and picks fights over the dumbest stuff. He knows how sensitive I am about everything, which just makes it worse. He doesn’t know how to control his anger, and it’s getting to me, my mom, and my brother. The things I find on his computer are revolting and disgusting, how he looks at other women is completely disturbing, and he talks to other women behind my mother’s back. I’m surprised I haven’t pulled out every single hair on my head and cut off my arms and legs. It’s getting to be too much, and I honestly don’t know what to do anymore. When I go see a counsler about it, she thinks I’m making most of it up, when I talk to my friends they are almost speechless,and don’t really want to come to my house because they don’t want to see him, and the love of my life isn’t there as a best friend, lover, etc, etc, etc. I kind of just want to sit up in my room and watch How I Met Your Mother, even though my love showed me that show and it pretty much resembles us. I don’t want to say I’m depressed because I’m not, but I have no idea how. Someone talk to me please? I just want distractions. Anything, please.

i actually feel like punching myself after 90% of what i say out loud

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